I really need to get more consistent with my blogging i always find myself with a million things i want to write about but i never give myself the time to do it ..im going to work on that ... truly i am. Its been an okay couple of weeks.. im having some medication issues and that tends to throw off my entire system so hopefully that will be back on track soon so ill be feeling a little more human again ! I don't know how Alex deals with me i really truly don't. I am not an easy person to be around when my meds are going all crazy and i don't know why but alot of times much of it gets taken out on Alex and he is so so good and really tries to not take much of it personally ..i don't know what i would do without him and his support !
Last week was hard .. dental work is my number one fear and last week i accomplished something huge ! I went and had 5 hours of sedation dental work done and am now almost completely done with all the work i need ! Such a great feeling ! This time around was a hard recovery but im so glad to be past it now !
Its now just a little over 3 months from when we lost papa and its still hitting hard.. but im getting better im trying to get out of the house more and really push myself to be happy and keep on going because i know papa wouldn't want me sitting around crying all day . . its still hard so so hard because i just miss him so much and there are so many times i just want to call him to tell him something ...Ava has been talking about papa a lot lately as well...she got him some flowers and went and put them at the cemetery last weekend Ava said she really liked being there and getting to visit papas special place .. it was nice and really made me feel good .. I am so proud of the young lady ava is becoming she is wise beyond her years and she really does amazing me all the time !
Ive made another big step in the right direction, ive gotten really friendly with a girl i knew many years ago Kyra she happens to have a son about the same age as Michael and has many of the same views and thoughts about kids and well life and family in general ! I have found such a great friend in her lately its amazing . Im proud of myself for actually following through and making plans and going and doing things again its an amazing feeling .
I hate to cut this short but i just realized how late its getting and ive got to get everyone ready Avas got school and Michael and i have a play-date
Until next time
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